Shift

I am not as happy as I was. I used to wake up early in the morning and will start to crack jokes to start the day. But now, I wake up in the morning full of stress to start the day.


I used to enjoy my way to work. in my little car, I will sing songs play out from the radio, but now, I laid quiet. The mood is rather different, I can feel the different.


Should a higher pay package comes with tons of stress. Sorry loh, I dun believe. The problem here is, have alot of stakeholders, direct supervisors and bosses in this company. Everyone can ask me to do things and carry out tasks. Very soon my stress will become depression if I cannot handle it well.


In my 18 years of career, this is the first time I feel demotralised and disappointed. I have no one to talk to because, I felt useless by talking to anyone. I have kept my fath with lord Buddha. I did not broke any rules of engagement, religiously. So whats is in stall for me?

I questioned lord Buddha, but he has not answer my prayer. When will that be? Only lord Buddha knows.


I am sad. But I need strenght to walk through everyday. Where else can I get the energy to continue on this path.

If I can turn back the clock. I wouldn't have choosen this pathway. Do I stand a chance? Haiz....In the first place, do I have a choice? Please lord Buddha, answer my prayers.